new brain

There was a wonderful Python sketch where some 'Gumbys' in their corner-tied pocket hankies gurned 'new brain', or so I remember.

I watched Limitless the other night on DVD.

I so want to have that level of smartness - the 

drug usage and violent drug barons I can do without but I so want the smarts.

Anyway - here's my update.

I was weirdly disappointed that in our recent session we were focusing on the tinnitus - though I'd love to be free of it, of course! - because I am so invested in being cleverer. I asked Dr P and she seemed to agree with me saying - well if we fix this we are helping the brain overall, aren't we? She seemed to say yes but she could have been humoring me.

However - here's a cautious thought. I feel a tad smarter. I am sitting doing thing on the computer and my memory as I go about my email tasks seems better - I make fewer mistakes with numbers. I feel less fog. I can look at the top title bar of a document with more ease - that seemed to be too effortful in the past - hence me gettign into a muddle with which document I was working on - relying on a motor skill memory (when had I last clicked from doc to doc) rather than simply looking! How bizarre. How wonderful.

Also exciting news...if the volume indicator on my TV is accurate (variables, variables, subjectivity)  I seem to be hearing  better!

FANTASTIC.

I have always suspected that it's the high frequency sounds of my tinnitus that are obstructing me hearing consonants so clearly. At the hospital ( I must write about my Tinnitus Therapy session) they have told me I have lost upper range hearing - I don't like to take it on. Glasses one can accept, but the hearing aid is far from a fashion accessory at the moment. Even if my hearing is slightly impaired, I'm sure that the tinnitus lowering will be good news for me.

It's rather exciting.

If I were to rate my tinnitus - I might say 25% in right ear (it's actually seems  hard to gauge each ear level - my access to right hear hearing is impeded by the sounds in my left) and 65% in left. Which is a big reduction. Yes, it really is.
Miracles may be possible. 
Or rather, Science works.
I'm cautious of course, 
but a tad excited.