Dr P lent me a gizmo called 'alphastim'. It stimulates the good alpha waves.
When we did the first protocol, she was thrilled at the improvement.
Two sets of waves were at the new good level. A remarkable change from previously.
I have to admit I have been feeling calmer and calmer as I have been using it (once a day for 20mins each time), although it's always hard for me to tell what to credit with changes because I usually have about 3 new practices on the go at any one same time.
That morning, yesterday, Monday 14th I had woken up with a still, thoughtless brain. Smooth. Easy. What peace and joy. Also the night before, Sunday, I felt that 'I' had discovered the knack of calming my brain at night by choosing to be in my body as a preparation for sleep.
Well yesterday I had to pack up the cute little alphastim gadget and it's wires into its polystyrene pack and into it's cardboard box and take it back to Dr Parkinson.
Last night in bed my brain was hopping- having all sorts of ideas of the new order for the show I will be doing July 7th. I chose to go to body but it felt like a jangly buzz also. Missing the alphastim! I persisted and al least refused to get anxious about the sleeplessness. Eventually I slept.
I mentioned to Dr P on Monday that I noticed I am still having this problem: I want to say 16th July, for example, and what comes out of my mouth is 'the 6th February' - ie some other random date and month. I only realise when my listener repeats to em what I have said. 'That's the visual part of your brain said Dr P. We visualise the calendar or the activity or the word/concept before speaking it.
She moved the electrodes and replaced them on the left front side of my head. Some were also attached behind my ear.
The brain pattern still showed the improvement but there was a part of the pattern that Dr P said was 'out of order!' A vibration that should have read around 30 was off the scale at 100. Brain was trying to regulate and scoring well enough but then the level would shoot back up again. We did three new protocols like this. Vindicating to see that the problem has a visual representation in the various bar and line graphs that Dr P's computer throws up (and therefore a 'reality'). And of course gratifying that this might be fixable.
She also said you have a 'bright brain underneath it all'. Buried treasure. Might I become as genius as i would like? Bring it on!
I asked Dr P - how come I can (albeit with effort) member my lines in the show and she said that was a trained memory, with various stimulators eg sense memory involved.
It will be a remarkable thing if i can trust my memory - trust my spontaneous speaking to a new level.
While I was there Dr P asked how my tinnitus was and I said still there - but also noted that until she asked I had not been aware of it. Interesting. It does seem to be softer, too.
